As a child growing up in rural Sussex, travelling by bus between East Grinstead and
Tunbridge Wells, gazing out at the tiny, sleepy villages, the misty green fields, the
cricket pitch, I was always aware that there were other worlds out there. Wilder,
hotter, stranger worlds. Countries with mules and camels, horse-drawn taxis,
kaftans and hennaed hair. This knowledge had a huge effect on me.
I was four when I went off travelling with my mother and elder sister, and six when we
came back. For almost two years we wandered through Morocco. We rented small
rooms in Medina hotels, hitchhiked, bartered, attended festivals and
hammams, spoke Arabic and French. We ate the food
they cooked in cauldrons in the square of Marrakech, played with the beggar
children, befriended the women who sold drums. My sister went to a Moroccan
school and learnt about the pillars of Islam, the laws by which the people lived their
lives. She also learnt the names for all the animals and how to count to ten. My
mother became interested in Sufism and started praying towards Mecca on a rug.
Sussex by comparison was quiet and still. I remember, age six or seven, sitting in my
classroom listening to the teacher ask if anyone had
'news'.
'News' was an opportunity for children with
pressing things on their minds to reveal them then at the beginning of the class,
and hopefully remain quiet until break.
"Yes," my hand shot up,
"I've got some news."
And I darted to the front of the class and told them how I'd once
ridden in the saddlebag of a donkey, my sister on the other side, and how terrified I
was as the donkey clipped down the mountain path, how every second I was sure
its hooves were going to slip. I wanted my school friends to see the mountain, the
procession of bright people scrambling down, and to know that at the top, a camel
decked in flowers had had its head chopped off.
"I think that's enough for
today," the teacher quietened me with a restraining hand, and
reluctantly I went back to my desk.
For the next ten years I hardly left Sussex. The world outside became fixed in my
mind as impenetrable and very far away. I had no idea that people went on
package tours, arriving at their destinations within hours, or took weekend breaks
that involved no life-threatening illness or delays. But the further away my own
travels became the more determined I was not to forget them. My class at school
received regular bulletins about orange groves and oases, the taste of cumin in
bissara soup, and once when I had the floor all to myself I
told them a long story about how my sister and I once saw a mirage. We were in
the desert, riding on camels, half dead from thirst, when there in the distance we
saw an island of palm trees and green grass. We trotted thankfully towards it only
to find that it had disappeared. It's from this point that I can trace
my future as a fiction writer. Of course I'd never ridden into the
desert on a camel, never seen a mirage, although to this day I wish I had, instead
I'd simply read about one in a Tintin book and exchanged the
characters of Thompson and Thompson for my sister and myself. But by now
I'd told my class so many unlikely stories it meant nothing to them
to accept one more, and from then on I was free to elaborate and embroider, and
the more I did it, the more natural it became.
But then something happened that stopped me in my tracks. A new boy arrived at our
school and at 'news' he told us about Thailand.
He'd seen a jellyfish, all wobbly and white, and he told us how it
had floated up to him and brushed against his arm. The class shivered and
gasped. "Did it sting you?" the teacher
asked, and I thought I saw him hesitate before he launched into a detailed
description of his rash. Thailand was fascinating and new, and no one wanted to
listen to Moroccan adventures any more. My role had been usurped. Occasionally I
did still tell the stories, but only to myself. I practiced them, honed them down,
elaborated on them. If I was going to share them with anyone again I was going to
make sure they were as good as they could get. And then slowly, slowly, my own
life took over. I started living in the present, I made real friends, and Morocco faded
into the past.
Years later, in my early twenties, I started going to a creative writing class, and after a
series of assorted exercises we were set a task. Simply to write a longer piece. A
five- or six-page piece about anything at all. What could I write about? I had no
idea, and then as soon as I sat down, alone in a quiet room, my stories all came
back to me. Of course I'd write about the camel festival and the
cumin, the beggar girls, the drummer women in the square, and although when I
closed my eyes I could remember, almost cinematically, my life as it was then, I
realised I did have a head start. I'd practiced these stories
before.
But sometimes, especially if my book was going well, I'd stop and
gaze off into space. What if I could never write about anything else? What if I did
think up another story, would I have to practice and embellish it for the next 20
years of my life? By now I'd fallen in love with the whole process
of writing and I couldn't bear to think I'd ever
have to do anything else. But as soon as I'd finished
Hideous Kinky, (as my first novel became), I found there
was a reservoir of stories waiting to be told. In fact Morocco had been so vivid and
so colourful that it had almost submerged the importance of everything else.
I've since discovered that one of the most wonderful things about
being a novelist is that, in your own mind at least, you can travel anywhere you
want. I've just spent the last two years back in Sussex, conjuring
up those mist-green fields, remembering the quiet of the country lanes where
foxgloves and snapdragons grow tall. Once I set my mind to it, it was easy to find
enough drama and suspense to fill a book, even on the Ashdown Forest golf
course. Any number of things could happen in those leaded phone boxes, or even
at the plank-board bus stops where as a teenager I'd been so
overwhelmingly bored. Sitting in a London study with the sounds of the city never
far away, I took great pleasure in sending my characters rustling through bracken,
scooping up great armfuls of white hay or hacking down a gorse bush with an axe.
But what I'll never know is how long it would have taken me to
find my courage and become a writer if I hadn't had that first,
pressingly urgent travellers' tale handed to me on a plate.